Thursday, May 2, 2013

Patience

I'm realizing an interesting thing about myself:  I'm not very patient.  With some things anyway.
I marvel at my husband.  As a farmer, so many things are out of his control.  Let me re-state that:  As a farm family, so many things are out of our control.  The weather this spring has been crazy, especially when compared to how unusual last spring was.  As I'm typing this, 3" of snow have melted since it fell last night.  Yes, today is May 2.  During this time of year, farmers are busy preparing the fields and planting their crops. There's fertilizing to be done, then there's planting to be done, then there's spraying to be done....you get the idea.  I think I am getting much more impatient for this whole process to get going than my husband.  He was able to complete the fertilizer application before the snow, but now we wait for things to dry out so the planting can begin.  So I marvel at how Dave takes this all in stride:  we can't do anything about it anyway, so why get all upset about it?  And he truly means it!!
Now, don't get me wrong.  I am so thankful for the much needed rain and moisture our barren land has received after last year's record drought.  God has been good.  And I don't just want my husband out of the house, because that couldn't be further than the truth.  But, the whole thing of waiting........being patient........."Be still, and know I am God."
One would think that as a teacher, patience would come easily for me.  And once in a while, it does.  But alot of times, I struggle with it.  
A student of mine did the song "O Rest in the Lord" from Mendelssohn's oratorio "Elijah" for Contest this spring.  I helped him pick that song out, mainly because his voice was amazing with the song, but deep down, I think maybe I was a little selfish, and knew I would need to hear that reminder:  O rest in the Lord, wait patiently for Him.....
I do have a tendency to want to rush things: times, dates, etc.  I get so excited when things are coming up, when there is something to look forward to.  I've been given so many wonderful, amazing gifts, blessings -- I don't want to pass up any of the goodness of the present in anticipation of the promises of the future.
I need to be present in the moment.  Appreciate what is right here.  Right now.
Just rest in the Lord........wait patiently for Him..........

1 comment:

  1. My tendency is to worry about what is coming up, rather than looking forward to it. Either way we miss the present, don't we?

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